Always In The Dark

2005-11-06T14:12:00.000-08:00

My daughter on the left and her friend homecomming

2005-11-06T14:09:00.000-08:00

Tosha Homecomming

Look I am still alive!!!!!

2005-11-06T13:46:00.000-08:00

Well the posting the next day thing of coarse did not work. Lets see what has been going on in my neck of the woods??? Lots of work, late spring cleaning, trying to keep up with the rodents, amdtrying to land this new job.

My daughter a few weeks ago decided that she wanted to quit cheerleading, that I recently found out that it was because the upcomming competiotion scared the hell out of her, but now wants to go back now that she went to the event to support the girls. But they have this rule that if you quit you can not go back in the same year but they are going to take a vote to see if they can make an exception so we will see this week how that works out.

My 10 year old son has decided to play flag football and they made him they're quarterback. Which he isn't doing to bad at. Saturdays game they let him make ALL of the plays since the actual coach is out of town and the sub coach tried calling a couple that did not work out too well. The poor things haven't won a game yet but they play they're little hearts out.

And my other daughter is playing war with her dad and he has now decided that she is no longer aloud at his house. Which I am not real sure how this is going to work out. I hate to see them with a wall in between them, but she does have a sassy mouth on her. I just hope it doesn't go on for very long.

And my to be step kids the older one just went to her first homecomming. And mind you she is a major tomboy, but I will post a picture of her in her dress, she actually looks like a beautiful young lady. And the younger one hasn't really picked any thing to be interested in yet, but her time is comming.

And this new job I am trying to get is where my sister and my ex-boss works at. They say that they for sure want to hire me but they feel presured to place an ad in the local paper to be fair, but tell me to be paitient that they are still very interested in me. So we will see.
Then on then I remember Feb. is just around the corner and I have not done a damn thing for out wedding!!! Oh shit can I pull this one off???????

Well there is a little bit of what is going on right now next I will post a couple of pick ( I hope)

Til next time....
TC

Looky looky...........

2005-09-29T18:09:00.000-07:00

I actually got to get on the computer!!!!!! My daughter always is hoggin it anymore, now that she has a boyfriend. (but he lives in another state to explain the always hogging the computer) She is growing up way too fast for me.

Work has been busy, and is only getting busier with retail holidays starting already. I'm thinking my boss isn't liking me recently revieled sence of humor or he just isn't quite sure how to take it. The other day he asked me to do something and I told him that he was not my boss and I didn't have to do anything he told me, then my co-worker (friend) told him that she was going to slap the brown right off of him. (He is of Hispanic decent) But now he is starting to laugh back.
My friend (that my honey finally got to meet today) is a month away from having her baby and we are already planning her first night back out on the town, and I can not wait. That will be a story in itself.

Well I am off the try to decide what I am going to with myself since the kids and my honey is gone this weekend.

TC

Look who finally got to do a post

2005-09-02T16:31:00.000-07:00

Well it has been a really busy summer so far. Now it is getting busier with kids back to school and retail holidays are thinking that they want to start up already. Which I am not ready for at all but I dont think that they will stop and wait for me.

Well I have to get off of here and get my daughter to the football game so she can cheer her little heart out. I will post alot sooner again, I promise.

TC

2005-08-07T19:46:00.000-07:00

true or what????

Yippie..........

2005-07-31T17:14:00.000-07:00

I finally got over 2,000 hits on my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even though I have been a bad girl and have not posted regularly.

It seems like I have been so busy with work and helping out with my daughters cheer team that I just have no time left. But it should all be slowing down a bit here pretty soon. There is only a month or so til school starts already. (Geez where does the time go anymore?)

Last weekend I burned myself into 3 lobsters and now I am one big flake. I guess that is what I get when I help with a car wash and yell at the girls to get they're sunblock on, even put some on some of the girls, and neglet to put it on myself. Shows how bright I can be. Even my BF told me to put some on. Next time I may listen right?

My BF has set it up that in 2 weeks his daughter and my daughter will be able to pack the race track. It will be they're first times in a race car, mind you neither one of them even have they're drivers permits yet. But they are both so excieted they can not see straight. Never mind the fact that mommy is already having a heart attack. Even though I know they will not actually be racing but still I can't help it.

Well I am off for right now.
TC

2005-07-22T17:16:00.000-07:00

Well hello everyone!!!!!!!!!! What a terrible end of week I have had. Let me tell ya a story that tramatized me and several co-workers yesturday.

I was stocking my shelves yesturday 3/4 of the way through my day when all of a sudden I heard a really loud crack on the floor, then heard OMG where is Lynn, then the PA came on with my fitting room girl yelling code white (in wal-mart world that means someone is hurt). So I stepped around the corner and seen a lady (looked about 60 ish) laying on the floor, and two co-workers pulling the shopping cart off of the top of her. At first we thought she was starting to have seizures but there was no sign of that and she had stopped breathing and was turning blue faster than we could get to the phone to call 911. About that time a friend of mine had walked in just in time to hear code white and where the location was. She threw her purse down and instantly started working on the Poor lady. ( we now know her name was Dorthy) Thank god my friends occupation is working as fire and rescue and knew just what to do or we would have lost her right there on Wal-Marts floor. They shocked her at least 4 times that I know of and lots and lots of CPR. But she was having a massive heart attact. They worked on her for a half hour just to stablize her to transport her to the hospital. As of last night she was in a drug induced coma fading in and out. Then mid morning today we were notified that she did not make it. We did not really know her but it still effected us as if we did. and it makes you stop and think......

I will post later how her poor husband found out. Now that situation pissed me off.

Until then tell all of your loved ones how much you love things could change as fast as you can blink your eyes.

TC

Inventory sucks!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-24T16:53:00.000-07:00

Sorry I have not posted for awhile we have been getting ready for inventory and finally had it yesturday. I did o.k. But I was not heald responsible for this one since I have only had the department for a few months now. But on the good side I made the honor roll for April. Which means I had the best sales for that month. Yahhhhh

Well I have to go work the fundraiser with my daughter for her cheerleading tonight. Real tough it is selling 30-30 tickets at the monster trucks both tonight and tomarrow night. The only bummer is my honey could not go with me.(big bummer)

I will catch up more with ya'll later this weekend.

TC

2005-06-12T13:12:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite things to do during the summer is to go to our local race track. I have been doing it for years now. Hopefully by next summer we will have our race car done so we can participate instead of just watching. All though watching the boyfriend will prolly just give me heart attacks. Well I am pooped, had a late night last night so this will be quick.

TC

2005-06-12T13:11:00.000-07:00

One of the nasty wrecks from last night. Notice there is one car sitting on the fence.

2005-06-12T13:10:00.000-07:00

Marvin Smith- My favorite spint car driver

What a week.....

2005-06-10T19:13:00.000-07:00

It has most busiest week I have had at work since the Christmas season. Now I am a dept. Manager of women's unmentionables and accessories, and on a busy week I would have maybe 300-400 price changes but not this week they send me down 1406 price changes along with about 30 modular resets. WHAT IN THE HELL WERE THEY THINKING!!! I manage 5 departments all together(and mind you noone will even put my freight away because everyone hates that dept.) So it took me all week to just get my price changes done. So when I did finish I first looked around and damn half of all of my department are now clearance, so now I am wondering how I managed to take honor roll with 3 of my 5 departments. I had a 3rd,2nd,and a 1st place in our district. I must have done something right. Maybe it was the sneeking up and throwing stuff in ppl's carts.(just kidding i didnt do that, but I thought about it).

My daughter that did cheerleading has been back and forth with the idea of doing it again. She was pissed for a long time because a bunch of parents pushed the coach out and got her to quit so another mom could be coach. Anywhooo I can home from work tues. and asked where she was and I was told she was at practice. Damn kids can't make up they're darn minds.
So I guess I still have a cheertater around.

Well I am pooped out so I think I'm gonna be off for a quick bathing and beddy by.

TC

HMMMMMM

2005-06-04T17:11:00.000-07:00

Well I am sitting here wondering what to do.....

You look forword to the kids going to they're dad's for the weekend for a little peace and quiet and the honey is out fishing. I have worked on some of my chores and that is no fun, honey is still fishing (but it is better than later on him regreting not going), I watched a movie, been online twice now, looked at the stack of bills (thinking I would have to be crazy to spend my day doing that), I have though about starting to make plans for the wedding (but why do that there is still 8 months and it is more fun to see how far you can stretch yourself at the last minute), maybe harass the dog (nawww she would end up driving me nuts), well I just don't know what to do with myself so I am off to think of somemore things I don't really want to do but should......

By the way little sis, if I wanna be a loud mouth about you being a little speed demon that you are I will. Your just not suppost to get yourself caught.

TC

Busy last 2 weeks

2005-05-31T13:41:00.000-07:00

Boy have the last two weeks been oh so busy! The Friday before last we got up at the crack of dawn to drive over to the coast for R's brothers wedding and got there and had to wait a few hours for everyone else since they were a little bit late but that is o.k. When they first got there we ran through a outdoor practice run through. Then we went and checked in at where we were staying at. We stayed at theese little apartments they had above a bar. Friday night it was loud down stairs but none of us really minded too much until one of the bar guests decided to come up and try to get in just to see what was up there. He left right away when he could not get in. But before that A took a quick bath and I got in my jammies. We relized the store down the road was about to close and a few of us wanted some munchies, so A and myself decided we would run down and get the numerous munchies that we wanted. Mind you the only way to get out to the street in through the bar. Not wanting to waist any time we decided to go in our jammies.( getting dressed would waste to much time) Boy the looks we got. One guy looked totally stunded and stuttered "pajamma jam parrrrrty" And we replied but of coarse.

Then Sat. morning we woke up early went and got breakfast before the girls separated from the guys. The guys went of to veg a little and get ready while the girls first stopped by the outlet mall then realizing we were going to be running late if we did not hustle up. So we then hurried back to the apartment to pick up out bags and head of to the bed and breakfast where they were getting married at. We hauled everything in and went back downstairs where we had a little tea party while the grooms mom took pictures, we then went upstairs to get ready were there was a couple of interesting pictures taken along with some really beautiful pictures.

While getting ready R's mom came up stairs and told me that he had gotten a hair cut and that was all that she was willing to tell me. I just knew that but how she said that he had shaved all of his hair off. Since it was real stormy out we had to turn it into and indoor wedding and had to just wing it since we had practiced outside the day before. But it all turned out really nice. We then had cake and champaine, then went to a Mexican resturaunt for dinner. Then all of us but M&M went back to the apartment for a couple of drinks, relax, and what ever else came up.

Sunday morning we got up went and ate then M was in her dress and went down to the beach for some pictures on the beach since we were unable to the day before. We all then drove our happy but yet tired and dragging butts home.

The week took forever to go by and never caught up on any sleep. Friday R we over the pass to get his daughter after work and then we got up at 5 in the a.m. to head up to Wash. for the reception party at his brothers house. It was nice all of the kids didn't fight that much other than the one bumper kid incident. But that was an accident. Poor S came out of it with the worst black eye I have ever seen but she says it is o.k. because she says "I bloodied A" She is a crack up and ya gotta love the things that kids say.

We drove back home Sunday since I had to work yesturday and R had to take his daughter home. Still no catching up on sleep...

Then I wake up today with sick kids and at first had to stay home because I didn't have anyone to stay with my son, then both girls came home sick so everyone has just been laying around doing nothing catchin up on rest but not feeling like it.

So there is a bit of an update on the last couple of weeks. So now we will see if I can post again in under a week. Until then......

TC

2005-05-30T16:45:00.000-07:00

I think it is a nice tan line!

2005-05-30T16:44:00.000-07:00

Now is this redneck or what?

2005-05-27T19:00:00.000-07:00

The drunken fruit

2005-05-27T18:55:00.000-07:00

Well we survived the first half of the wedding this weekend is the second half. The first half was really nice. The weather didn't cooperate to the fullest but we all had a blast anyways. All of the girls had a tea party right before we got ready, and had the yummiest desert. It was called drunken fruit. I will post a picture of it for you all to see. I will post a longer post after this weekend, so until then........

TC

2005-05-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

The boyfriend and myself

2005-05-25T19:42:00.001-07:00

The are a couple of pics to tide you all over til I get a bit more time......

To be continued.......

TC

2005-05-25T19:42:00.000-07:00

The bride and one of the brides maids

2005-05-19T10:47:00.001-07:00

close up of the back

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full length

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top of dress

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bottom of dress

2005-05-19T10:45:00.000-07:00

Dress

2005-05-19T10:39:00.000-07:00

Yahhh I finally got a day off. I think in the last three weeks I have had the equivilant of 2 1/2 days off, but now I get a 4 day weekend. My boyfriends brother is getting married this weekend at the coast. So we are basicly going to be having a drinking fest all weekend. All of us girls will be dressing all black. Basicly gothic look. But hell it will be a blast. I will post a couple of pictures of my dress above this post and will post the weekends events when I get back until then everyone TC

2005-05-13T18:26:00.000-07:00

Ok so who does not look forward to the day that they are free to get even with they're boss?

Well today was my Assistant Managers last day so.......

The fun we got to have......

First we shrunk wrapped her to a chair, smeared chocolate cake all over her face and head then did the same to her car except her car was surrounded with shopping carts. In the mean while a cake fight broke out in the break room and several people had to run home to change they're clothes and to get the cake out of they're ears and noses. Well there was the highlight of my day.

TC

2005-05-11T19:54:00.000-07:00

Howdy good neighbors!!!!!!!!!!
I got to have such a wonderful day at work today. (I am exaggerating)

About a month ago I was promoted to Dept. Manager at work. Well for that I got to sit in a day long seminar today that I had to ask for toothpicks just so I could look like I was half way awake.

Now a month into it I am wondering if it is worth it. I am only supposed to have to work one weekend day and one evening shift a week other than that I get mon - fri 7-4. Then I am told it isn't all dept. Managers having to do it, it is just the new ones.........
Well guess what they are about to see my first bitch fit as a dept manager. Treat us all the same damn it.

Next weekend I get a 4 day weekend . We are going to the coast for my boyfriends brothers wedding. So I trotted myself down to hot topic and bought me a dress. It is ending up being a Goth wedding. But it will be fun since I don't really get a chance to often to dress that way.

Well tomorrow is day 5 out of 11 so I am gone hit the hay right after I use spell checker just for certain readers so the know what eveything means. ;)

TC

2005-05-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

I know how everyone just loves teemarketers! I recieved and email at work saying that they are about to release a directory for cell phone numbers to telemarketers. To save your minutes, sanity, ect. here is a number to call to get off of the directory........

1-888-382-1222

TC

HEY EVERYONE

2005-04-29T14:50:00.000-07:00

Hi there!!!! How is everyone???? I have been busy busy busy at work. Actually I have been working my ass off. (literally) I had to go out and buy new clothes, so I guess that is a plus other than hurting the pocket book.

A bunch of our friends and my bf and I went out to the bar sat. night to celebrate my bf birthday. Everyone but myself got totally smashed. We all had so much fun so we have all decided to do it at least one every other month at the minimum. We are all a bunch of clowns anyways. And besides nights out add for more adventures in other areas. And who doesn't like that?

Well I'm gonna jet for now and hopefully I can post more often now.

TC

2005-04-17T13:39:00.000-07:00

And she is still there!

2005-04-17T13:38:00.001-07:00

Think maybe she was cold?

2005-04-17T13:38:00.000-07:00

How some things can sleep

2005-04-17T13:37:00.000-07:00

close up of her trophy

2005-04-17T13:36:00.000-07:00

K and her cheer trophy she got the other night

2005-04-10T12:10:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!!!!! I am still alive. It has been an interesting 2 weeks first my boyfriend and I have finally set a wedding date for Feb. 4th, and then I got a promotion at work. Instead of being the peon on the bottom of the totem pole, I am about 3/4 of the way up the pole now. I got a department manager position after my department manager stepped down. So now we will see how much faster I can get to being completely insane. Well I will update some more when I have a few more min.

TC

2005-04-01T11:02:00.000-08:00

Once again I am back. I lost my internet connection again. What a pain in the butt that is. Well I will update later when I don't have to work.

TC

the things kids do

2005-03-14T10:46:00.000-08:00

I wake up this morning getting the crap scared out of me, hearing my laundry room door open and close, knowing that it is just me andour dog angel at home. Guess what I was wrong.........

I walk out to the kitchen and find my 12 year old standing on the kitchen counter. I proceed to ask her what the heck she was still doing here. (she is the one that always goes to school) And she tells me that she did not feel good.

So ok she does not get sick often so I think nothing of it........
A couple of hours later she says "ok mom the truth is......" she holds up her hair and shows me her eyebrows.

Yep sure enough one is just about completely gone. She claims that the dog bumped her while trying to shave her eyebrows so they are not quite so thick. All I could do is shake my head and tell her to get ready for school because I was taking her.

So that is how I woke up this morning.......

TC

2005-03-11T13:53:00.000-08:00

Well I finally have a minute to get on here and update.........

But damn there is not a darn thing to update. I have just been working and gettin more and more irritated with my job, but it is some money in the pocket to pay bills.

Other than that I am getting used to the bf being at home with me every night. Which means fun, fun, and more fun.

Well of to work again.......

TC

2005-03-07T11:46:00.000-08:00

A woman went to a K-Mart service counter and tells the clerk she wants a refund for the toaster she bought because it won't work.The clerk tells her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special". Suddenly, the woman throws her arms up in the air and starts screaming,"PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!!!!"The befuddled clerk ran away to get the store manager in front a growing crowd of customers.The manager goes to the woman and asks, "Ma'am what's wrong?" She explained the problem with the toaster, and HE tells her that he can'tgive her a refund because she bought it on special.Once again, the woman throws her arms up in the air and starts screaming "PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!!" And doing so draws and even bigger crowd!In shock, the store manager pleads "Ma'am, why are you saying that?In a huff, the woman says, "BECAUSE, I LIKE TO HAVE MY NIPPLES PINCHED WHEN I AM BEING SCREWED!!The crowd broke into applause and her money was quickly refunded

Update.........

2005-03-01T12:03:00.000-08:00

Well after my last post I got a phone call from my girlie Dr. telling me that I need to call my internal Dr. and schedual an appointment because I tested really high for a heart disease. (Of coarse it sent me into a huge panic attack) So I did and saw him 2 days later... just for him to lecture me on how I was going to pay my Dr. and hospital bills with no insurance and how do I take care of my children. ( uhhhh hello asshole that is not your concern) So he proceeded to take my blood pressure and tell me that it is a little high. (I wonder why???) And tell me to come back in 3 months when I have quit smoking and have insurance and he will test me again and see how the heart disease thing is doing. So at this point I am wondering do I have the damn disease or not. Well I guess I will find out in a few months. Until then I will try not to think of it too much. But I do have polycystic ovary disease. Which isn't quite as stressfull to me. My oppinion on that one is just yank all that crap out I don't need it anymore anyways.On to another thought.........

My bf that I have been with going on 5 years now is finally going to be divorced. Yahhhhhhhh, we got copies for the 90 day waiver which will make it all faster, so I can now start planning for our wedding. I just am holding off on setting a date just to make sure I don't plan and find out that someone has dropped the ball on the whole divorce thing again.

I have had my complete fill of Wal-Mart. I really do enjoy my co-workers but I do not agree with they're managers, so once again I am job hunting. The last several months I have oh so much hated not being around when my kids are home from school and now that the bf is working day shift it seems like I don't get to see him even more than when he was working graveyard.

Well there is a little bit of an update for you and until later.....

TC

2005-02-19T12:19:00.000-08:00

Yes I am still alive............

Everything with the doctors have tuned out not to be too life threatening. Although I have one huge complaint. After I had my 3rd child I had my tubes tied. Beings how I had trouble remembering to take those tiny little pill everyday. So what is the doctors treatment for me....... Birthcontrol pills. HELLO THAT'S WHY THE HELL I BROKE MY OVEN!!!!!! So I don't have to remember those damn things. He looked at me very stange when I said that. Oh well I guess if it works I will have to try to have a brain and remember to take the dang things.

On the other hand Wal Mart has broken the last straw for me......
Job applications are going out. They are suppost to be a family friendly work place. Yah right only they're family .. aka other associates. You can't even get a weekend off to go see your newly born niece. Yep I have another niece. she is so cute she was 5pounds 8 ounces. a tiny little thing.

My bf finally got on a day shift at his work and as funny as it may seem we still don't get quite as much time together thank to, you know it Wal mart. That is why they have got to go.

Well I hope things are well for everyone. Even though I have not had time to post latley I have been trying to keep up on everyone elses posts.

Time to go get ready for work so I will catch up more later.

TC

2005-02-08T21:21:00.000-08:00

Guess he needs more practice!

Nope no title

2005-02-07T18:59:00.000-08:00

Well today I went in for more blood tests and ultrasounds. (Ick I am sick of Dr.'s) Really sleepy tonight so I will update tomarrow. And maybe I will finally get back into blog land.

TC

2005-02-02T22:57:00.000-08:00

Girl & her boyfriend go to the pub. When it's the girl's turn to buy a round,she tells him that she's heard of a wonderful new drink he simply must try.She returns with the usual half of lager for herself.For him, she has two glasses.One contains a measure of Bailey's, the other lime juice.

Instructions: "OK, what you gotta do is, you gotta swig the Bailey's,hold it in your mouth, and then drink the lime juice."He looks a bit dubious, but she's very enthusiastic so he decides to give it a go.First the Bailey's; lovely smooth, creamy, warm feeling in the mouth.Then he takes the lime juice.

T + 0.1 secs: The cream in the Bailey's curdles.

T + 0.3 secs: Boyfriend's face turns the colour of fresh lime juice.

T + 0.6 secs: Boyfriend calms his stomach & swallows the gunge.

T + 1.5 secs: Boyfriend says "This taste like crap.

What's it called?

"She replies "

"Blowjob revenge"

Yep I am still alive

2005-01-27T22:14:00.000-08:00

Well I went back to the Dr. yesturday and he says the kidney looks fine, but I still need to go back in 3 months and he was me to go to the girlie Dr. now for the cyst that they found when they scanned my cat.

I HATE GOING TO THE GIRLIE DOCTOR !!!!!!!!!! They poke you in all the wrong places when you don't want it. But if i have too maybe I can convince them to take out all of the parts that cause missery on a monthly basis.

Other than that I have been just trying to keep up with my hellions on wheels. Do they ever stop?????? And then there is the dog that is using everything as a chew toy and then when you try to punish her looks at you with her great big brown eyes and makes it real hard to punish her. Damn it anyway.

Well it is late and I will try to get back into bloging more often. Until then.........

TC

2005-01-25T22:37:00.000-08:00

My baby girl all dressed up!!!! Where has the time gone????

2005-01-23T23:49:00.000-08:00

I am feeling my sense of humor comming back!

Just a quick update and off back to bed I go......

2005-01-20T20:34:00.000-08:00

Well I have managed to stay out of the ER for three days now. I am feeling microscopic better each day so far. I even went to work today and boy did it poop me out.I get to go back to the dr. again on Wed to make sure everything is healing well. I hope to be back in the blog of things soon. As long as I behave myself I guess things will clear up all the way. Well I'm off to bed for now.........

TC

My New Year

2005-01-16T21:23:00.000-08:00

As for anything new yet this year, not a whole lot. Keeping up with Kieylies cheerleading, Brittnies attitude, and Kevins hyperness.

Last wed. I started getting sickly, went into the er friday afternoon and told me that we needed to stop the acid in my tummy and I would be better. Waiting, waiting, yep pain still there, drugs not a help at all. So Robert takes me back to the er today. A second round of blood tests and cat scan....oh boy I'm having fun now. (NOT) Well they think I might have a kidney infection but they are not totally sure, so they will treat it as if that was it. Gee makes me feel as if they know what they are talking about. And the loving brother in law that I have says if it comes to it not to look in Ericas direction cuz he has her spares sold on the black market. (haa haa isn't he so so funny ) Well thats it for now I will update more later.

2005-01-10T23:37:00.000-08:00

I saw this and thought it was kind of funny.......

Girls' Night Out

Why females should avoid a girls night after they are married:

The other night I was invited out for a night with "the girls." I told my husband that I would be home by midnight, "I promise!" Well, the hours passed and the margaritas went down way too easy. Around 3 a.m., a bit loaded, I headed for home. Just as I got in the door, the cuckoo clock in the hall started up and cuckooed 3 times. Quickly, realizing my husband would probably wake up, I cuckooed another 9 times. I was really proud of myself for coming up with such a quick-witted solution (even when totally smashed), in order to escape a possible conflict with him. The next morning my husband asked me what time I got in, and I told him "Midnight". He didn't seem pissed off at all. Whew! Got away with that one! Then he said, "We need a new cuckoo clock." When I asked him why, he said, "Well, last night our clock cuckooed three times, then said, "Oh shit.", cuckooed 4 more times, cleared it's throat, cuckooed another 3 times, giggled, cuckooed twice more, and then tripped over the coffee table and farted."

2005-01-09T23:55:00.000-08:00

Men and Women

HER SIDE OF THE STORY

My husband was in an odd mood Saturday night. We planned to meet at a cafe for a drink. I spent the afternoon shopping with the girls and I thought it might have been my fault because I was a bit later than I promised but he didn't say anything about it. I don't remember doing anything to make him upset, but I could tell there was something wrong.
The conversation was quite slow going so I thought we should go off to someplace intimate so we could talk more privately. We went to this restaurant and he was STILL acting a bit funny. I was getting really worried, what did I do? What was bothering him? Was he mad at me?
I tried to cheer him up, but started to wonder what was bothering him. Was it me or something else? I asked him if he was upset with me, he said no. But I wasn't really sure. In the car on the way back home, I said that I loved him deeply and he just put his arm around me. I didn't know what the heck that meant because, you know, he didn't say it back or anything. We finally got back home and I was wondering if he was going to leave me! So I tried to get him to talk but he just switched on the TV.
Reluctantly, I said I was going to go to bed. Then after about 10 minutes, he joined me and to my surprise, we made love. But, he still seemed really distracted, so afterwards I wanted to confront him but didn't, so I just cried myself to sleep. I just don't know what to do anymore. I mean, I really think he's seeing someone else.

HIS SIDE OF THE STORY

Played badly today --- shot 97 - - -Couldn't putt to save my life! Felt kind of tired.
Got laid though.

2005-01-09T23:47:00.000-08:00

Now wouldn't that be a sight?

My goals for the New Year

2005-01-05T23:07:00.000-08:00

I do not normally set yearly goals for myself but I thought maybe I would do just a couple this year and see how it goes......

1. Smoke a whole lot more....(maybe reverse psychology will work this time)

2. Get a better job.

3. Go out more often.

There I will start with those and re evaluate after a few months and maybe make more them.

TC

New Years Eve

2005-01-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

O.k. for my New Years Eve......not really any juicy details......but here it is.

I got the pleasure of having to work until 10:30 so everyone was on they're way to a heavy buzz by the time i got there. My ex-husband had already left due to being extreamly drunk. ( my x , his wife, my bf, and I get along really well) About a half hour after I got there we got a call ( mind you all of the kids are at a separate house with my girls babysitting all of the kids) that the girls got the cops called on them for playing rock tag and hitting the neighbors house with the rocks. So all of the kids had to be picked up to be supervized by adults.

BTW... what the hell is rock tag and whos bright idea was that one.. come to find out it was my daughters bright idea. (Damn her anyways)
But I am proud of her for admitting her wrong doing instead of trying to lie about it.

So about the time that was all settled down......

Let me first explain that this family and my family adopted each other into one family. We are not friends we are close family.

Any hoo.......A few of the guys were riding the nephews pee wee motor cycle around the block at about 12:30 - 1:00 AM when someone came running to the house saying the A just got beat up. Come to find out some kid came running out of his house and sucker punched A right off the bike, and the brawl was on. There was about 30 people out in the middle of the street. Then the other A ( which no one has ever seen him hit the ground in a fight) hit the ground and half way down my bf hit the kid that hit him and down he went.

We finally got people heading back to the house hoping we could do so before the cops showed up. Just then the first A's wife ( she is a tiny hispanic girl that can pass for 14 ) just opened a can of woop ass on the kids girlfriend that started the whole thing.

I have heard about small women packin a walop but holly crap she was a huge ball of fire on the loose. We finally got them separated and everyone back to the house and evaluated everyones wounds.

And the funniest part is that the cops never showed up and they were loud as hell. I could not belive it.

Well that is the jist of my New Years Eve......

TC

Who missed me???

2005-01-02T23:57:00.000-08:00

I am finally back now!!!!! My DSL modem took a dive on me then the phone company screwed up my account. (how nice of them I know). I am just popping in to say hello and I will catch up tomarrow and maybe even tell ya my new years eve night events.

TC

2004-12-21T01:00:00.000-08:00

Well not a whole lot going on with me right now, just trying to survive work with the lovely last minute shoppers. Thank god I have a day off today and tomarrow to rest up for the very very last minute shoppers.

I think I have decided to look hard for a different job starting right after New Years. I went into this job hearing stories of how bad Wal - Mart treats they're employees. But the reality of it still got to me when it really started in for me. When you get hired and you are told that you are full time and you look into it and find out that you are really part time. GRRRRRR!!!! I'm not even working towards benifits, which I took the job for mainly for my kids. But I wont even get any weekends with them or my BF ever unless I request one and even then they will be far and few between. So I now am going to look for another desk job with no weekends mainly because it is killing me not getting to be with my family no more than maybe an hour or two a day.

Well if I do not manage to make it on her agin .........
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL!!!!!

TC

2004-12-16T23:34:00.000-08:00

Thats me.....crabby!!!!!

I am such a stinker.........

2004-12-16T23:11:00.000-08:00

Seriouly now.... No that is not my christmas tree. I was being a smart ass to my sister. My tree is closer to what hers looks like but with light blue, white, and silver. But one always has to be a smarty to they're siblings. HEE HEE.

2004-12-15T22:30:00.000-08:00

Does my tree beat my sisters tree?????

2004-12-15T22:13:00.000-08:00

Haa Haa

2004-12-13T23:28:00.000-08:00

How I feel about some of the cranky people this last week!!

Not taking the other job

2004-12-12T23:18:00.000-08:00

Well the decicsion on the other job is a negative. The co-worker I was going to do it with and I decided a for sure job (even thou it is part time ) is better than no job in the future. And after I questioned my supervisor she told me it would be a really bad idea because the is a plan for me and it will start comming together soon. HMMMMM wonder what the plan is..... I sure would like to know. On another note I have been busier than hell at work right now. I have been comming home so tired as I am tonight so for now I am off to go sleepy and see if I can have some sweet dreams. Until tomarrow........

TC

One of the worst thing during Christmas.....

2004-12-10T01:02:00.000-08:00

sometimes is working in retail! How many of the same size shirts, pants, ect can one person try on? Sometimes I think they try to see how many things that they can pile up that I have to return to the racks. I have been out of retail the last 4 years and I am remembering now why I didn't really like it so much now. Don't get me wrong I love being around people. You make more friends that way.

I got my job by a temperary position on the remodel team for our local Wal - Mart which was a blast even though it was alot of hard work. I have a chance to transfer to do another remodel just up the freeway from here. It wouldn't be to bad because a co-worker of mine that was on my team that got hired on with me after the remodel wants to do it too and we can carpool. The only problem is will we have a job to come back to after the three months. No one seems to be able to tell us a yes or no answer. Hmmmm doesn't anyone (management) know they're policies??? So now we are weighing our options. When I was hired on I was told that I was a full time associate but this last week I find out nooo the system has me as a part time. Damn theese people! So needless to say we are not too sure we can belive them if they tell us yes we will have a job waiting for us. It will be full time plus for 3 months with weekends off. There are a lot of pluses and just a few negitives but those few there is a big one. Will I be able to work after or will I have to start the job hunt again. Any suggestion anyone???????????? Well I am off to ponder what I will do.

TC

2004-12-07T21:45:00.000-08:00

puff n stuff 2

2004-12-07T21:44:00.001-08:00

puff n stuff

2004-12-07T21:44:00.000-08:00

Buggaloos

Just a couple of questions rolled into one

2004-12-05T21:30:00.000-08:00

O.k. we all remember back to our childhoods every now and then.......

Who remembers H & R Puff en stuff and the bugaloos????????

One down two to go!!!

2004-11-29T23:44:00.000-08:00

Yahh the first of the holidays are over!!! Don't get me wrong but the holiday can be waring on a person.

Tanksgiving is over and Christmas and New Years to go!

This year for Thanksgiving I spent and my parents while my boyfriend was in Washington with his family, and my kids were at there dads house. It was nice but in away lonley since my boyfriend wasn't here to be with me. This year were was suppost to spend Thanksgiving together in Washington with his family but I had to work the day before and the day after so I had to stay home. So it just didn't feel the same. Don't get me wrong I love spending time with my family but part of my family was gone. We sat and watched a bunch of old movies and I got to remember what my oldest baby girl was like when she was a wee one. And all of the styles my family and yet my sisters worn back then. Now that was funny. Remember the time when it was cool for the girls to see how tall they could get they're bangs to stand up. All three of us girls were there just short of pulling out the ruler to see who won. And how many cans of Aqua Net we went through in a week, we could probably each by a house with the money that we had spent. Bring any memories to anyone else????

I guess it is o.k. since he is stuck with me for Christmas! (Whether he likes it or not...haa haa haa) And then for New years my house will be invaded by his family to party in the new year. That should be a hilarious post for you all to read, I will warn you in advance and I will try to get pictures for you all to laugh at if I remember it.

Well I am off for now.
TC

Happy Thanksgiving

2004-11-23T23:35:00.000-08:00

Incase I do not get onto the computer tomarrow or Thursday I just wanted to tell all of my fellow bloggers Happy Turkey Day!!!!!!!!!!

It has been awhile

2004-11-22T23:44:00.000-08:00

Well it has been a while since I have even been on my computer. It is the season that if you work in retail you start working alot. Darn it anyways, and to think not that long ago I was complaining of not being able to work. I will be content one day.

And sorry Just a girl.... I am not very good at writting and when I go back and read what I posted I think it doesn't sound good at all, but atleast I try, at my sisters persistance.

Today was my daughters tryouts to possibly move up to the varsity cheer squad. I got there to pick her up and she looked o.k. walking up to the car, so I start to drive home and have to pull the car over to the side of the road because she began crying uncotrolably. She did not make it. They decided to move only one girl up instead of the 3 - 5 that they were told was going to move up with the explination that the one that they did move up was only because none of the other girls would fit the last remaining uniform. So I calm her down and tell her to keep doing what she has been doing and look at it as this will give her 6 more months to practice for tryouts in april for next years squad. I think it helped her a bit. Especially since she is the only JV member that has varsitys things memerized just by watching them in practice. But I still feel bad for her because she wanted so bad to move back up.

Well I am off for now.
TC

What a week so far and it is only tuesday!

2004-11-16T21:08:00.000-08:00

Well the bf has been having problems with his wisdom teeth. Finally we get him to the dentist, Sunday night I have to run him into the emergency room because he is having an allergic reaction to the meds he was given. So we get that taken care of and get to go to the dentist a day earlier than planned to get all 4 wisdom teeth pulled.

So it is Tuesday and we go to get all of them pull and hopefully get rid of all of the pain since it was put off for way too long. Two and a half hours later they finally come out and ask me to come back to where he is.... after all of that time she (the dentist) decideds that she can not get the one tooth out (mind you all that time was spent on one tooth) so I have to rush him up to eugene which is about a half hour to 40 min. away from home to have emergency surgery due to the fact that his tooth is fused to his jaw bone. (I'm thinking yah fun....not) ........

We get to the oral surgeon and they get started. Two hours later they tell me to go ahead and come back to where he was that they were getting him up and walking around, but they did get all 4 of them out without having to break his jaw bone, which they were afraid that they would have to do.

Well thank god all of the hard part is over, now time for all of the funny stuff. (Due to the fact that he was put under for the procedure) The poor thing has no feeling from his nose down so needless to say the icky drooling begins, but that is not the most commical part, and that is him trying to remember everything that happened. I could be mean and tell him a bunch bs that never happened but I wont this time since he is finally not in pain. Well back off to play nurse. (hee hee)
TC

Better Late than never

2004-11-12T13:51:00.000-08:00

Better late thatn never.........

Thank You to all of our military people past, present, and future. I appriciate everything that you do for our country to keep us safe and free. All that you all do make me proud to say that I am part of this crazy country.

On another note I actually get most of the weekend off.....Yah now what will I do with myself????? My boyfriends kids will be here tonight, I have not got to see them for about 2 months now so I am pretty excieted. I will be they're stepmom on day. So most of the weekend off in a house with 5 kids. WHERE OH WHERE DID I STASH MY BOTTLE??? Maybe that they have had a break from each other the will not fight like they are true siblings, I hope- I hope!!

Now on to my grip list......
When I was offered my job I was told that I got the only full time position offered. Well that's see my schedual keeps comming up to only 26 hours. How in the hell is that full time???? They must have some weird way off figuring how full time and part time. Hell I was making more on unemployement!

Well enough of this and that for now I am off to do ahh hell I don't know!
TC

2004-11-09T23:23:00.000-08:00

this is why i try to keep sharp objects away from him

2004-11-09T23:22:00.000-08:00

first shot of the dorky hair cut

hmm what to post??????

2004-11-09T23:05:00.000-08:00

As I sit here trying to think of what I could post about....... still thinking....nope nothing yet! Boy I am exciting latley. (If ever)

My daughter has to wait another week to find out if she gets to move up to varisty cheerleading. I'm thinking the waiting is killing mom more than daughter. Besides the school and community pissing me off. They of coarse support they're football, basketball, swimming, soccer teams while the girls cheer squads are raising all of theyre own money to support they're teams from uniform, competitions, and travel arrangement to get to games and events, with the support of some parents driving to make sure all girls get to were they need to be. And they also have to fight for gym space to even practice, but bless they're hearts they keep truckin on.

On another note my son which is almost bald anyways decides he needs his hair cut... I reply what hair!!!! Next thing I know he comes out of the bathroom with a chunk of hair shaved off of his head. What the hell was he thinking??? I sometimes wonder where he gets some of his ideas. NOT FROM ME!!!

Ok enough gripping for now, I have to go get ready for work tomarrow and get some sleep and see what I can grip about tomarrow. (Just kidding)

TC

Can't think of a title

2004-11-09T01:01:00.000-08:00

I don't know what has gotten into me latley! Last week I sleep in until 4 in the afternoon and today I get up at 1 after sleeping all night. I guess I must have been oh so tired. I started to clean some files on my computer, but still need to clean alot more up. My sister and I started a group for aour family members to stay in touch with everyone. (O.K. she has done most of it so far) And a message was left and we just kept replying to each other.( 3 of us involved in it). Gee wont our family members be so happy to wake up in the am and they're email in boxes are over flowing since they have it set up to recieve all new messages in they're in boxes. Oppps, well I guess they can get a good laugh at how dorky we can be. Well it is late so I will try to have a better post tomarrow.
TC

2004-11-09T00:12:00.000-08:00

This is how I feel most mornings!!

2004-11-07T23:22:00.000-08:00

any woman that has given birth would love to see this!!

yahhhh a day off

2004-11-03T23:17:00.000-08:00

Well I finally had a day off today, but I didn't have a productive day. I woke up at 11:00, layed down for a nap at 12:30, woke up again at 4:45. The first thing I though was WHAT THE HELL!!! I slept the whole day away. I guess the flu and working at the same time wore me out more than I thought.

Well my sis posted a pic today that was not nice! Now I will have to come up with something to get even with her. I was young when we moved here and it was the first time I had been to this particular mall and it was getting dark when we got there, and being as tired as I was, half a sleep I looked out the window and saw the reflection of the parked cars on the side of the glass building. Not thinking of coarse asked how did they get the cars parked up there? Not a real bright question after I re-focused at what I was looking at in daylight the next time we returned to that mall. Hmmm my dad does claim that I am blonde at the roots.(Even though I have dark hair)

Well maybe I will be able to have a productive day.
TC

I'm back from mental hyadious

2004-11-02T20:16:00.000-08:00

Yahhhh, I am back from all of the heckticness of the temp. job I was doing. I was working on the remodel of our local Wal*Mart. Talk about long days. 12 hour shifts seemed to be normal for us on a daily basis. Hard physical work but we all managed to have a blast. Some of us were offered perminate jobs on Friday. I was offered the only full time postion. Yippie for me. There were only 2 real down falls so far. 1 we had to start the next day, no days off for us, so we all have worked 9 straight days. I wouldn't complain so much about that many days but we had just got done doing our usual 12 shifts all week. 2 I didn't get the position that I really wanted but a job is a job. And there can always be quick movement around the store. O.K. there are three, I am back to working nights and weekends, Yuckkkkkk!!!! Those shifts make me miss my babies. Oh well at least I will keep the roof over they're heads. Dand I just thought of a 4th.... They like to pass icky bugs like they are going out of style, so needless to say I just had to join in and caught a bug and have been sick all this last week. Now I am having to take antibiotics. Hmmmm maybe just alot of adult beverages will work better. Just stay in a solid drunken state for a week might kill it.

When I start new jobs I tend to keep info about myself until I get to know my co-workers but most of the girls I am working with have made me feel as if I have been a part of the group for years. Today we were talking about our kids likeing the gothic look. So I finally fesed up that I too on my free time and when I go out have my gothic side come out. But for some reason they can not picture it. So I guess one day on my day off I will have to summon up my gothic side.

I'm not sure if I had mentioned that my freshman daughter had made the varsity cheer squad last spring but freaked out and took herself down to JV. Well the plan was for her to next year re-try out for varsity. But plans have changed, they have lost atleast 2 girls off of they're varsity squad so they are haveing try outs in a week or two to replace them. Yahhhh I am so proud of her. I know she will make it again, since she already knows the dance that they are doing just by watching them at practice.

Well I am off to catch up on some other blogs I have fallen behind on.
TC

shhhh don't tell anyone

2004-10-28T19:50:00.000-07:00

Well as I sit at home with nothing to do, fire going in the fire place, as I get warmer and warmer I start peeling my clothes off. Damn I'm still not getting any cooler. So I peel off even more clothes. Nope still not working, so more clothes.......wait now I am in my birthday suit. DANG now what I'm still too hot.Hmmmm it is rather cool outside. Next thing I know I am out side awwwwwww that feels alot better. Walking around outside waving at people as they go by. Big ol smile and as big of wave as I can give. Ya gotta be polite to you neighbors you know. I wonder why I was getting such funny looks. As time goes by I start getting a combo of laughs and glares, I wonder why so many people are having such off the wall moods tonight????? Oh crap I am still in my birthday suit!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I then run back into the house and get my jammies on.

Ha Ha not really it was just another really dull day at work and at home, I just had to come up with something to post.

TC

nothing today

2004-10-27T21:36:00.000-07:00

Nothing to post today it was dull!! Maybe something tomarrow.

Can't think of a title

2004-10-25T19:45:00.000-07:00

Not a whole lot to post about tonight. It was a typical monday. Nothing going right of coarse. All execpt I only had to work 9.5 hours today. yipppie!!!!!!!!!

I got home sat down to relax and seen my soccar daughter walking up the side walk. Her sister forgot to tell me that practice got over ealier than normal. And boy was she a little ticked off. But I explained to her that maybe the rain was good to walk in since she was covered from head to toe in mud and the rain probably washed half of it off. She did not find that very funny either. Then to make it worse for her, her mommy just had to take pictures of her. ( I will post them later, her was so purty).

And just before that all happened I could not shut the boyfriend up about the deer he got this morning. My god you would have thought he had never gotten one before. He was like the biggest chatty cathy you could ever imagine. Almost worse than when he got his first tattoo.

Well that's about all for tonight. I will try to check in again tomarrow night, depending on how tomarrow goes.

TC

I made it through Satuday--Yippie!!!

2004-10-24T21:44:00.000-07:00

Mental note to self........STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM THE LONG ISLAND ICE TEA'S!!!!!!!!! I know better but never remember at the time. I guess that just goes to show how not so smart I can be at times. (lol) But it was even more fun once we got home. ( I will leave the details to your imagination)

I am trying to decide to dress up or not this comming up saturday for the costume party at the bar or not, and if I do what in the hell to wear. Last year I wore all of my favorite gothic stuff. Oh well maybe something will come to me.

Well I will find out for sure this week if I will stay with the new job or not. But that means putting in more 12 hour days to get a part time job. Hmmmmm is that really what I want to do? Well I have to get ready for work tomarrow so I am off.

TC

It is almost friday! YAH!!!!

2004-10-21T21:44:00.000-07:00

Yippie it is almost weekend time. Time for a little R & R. They have been working us 12 days, so needless to say I missed my 4th day in a row of posting. Damn them for interrupting my blogging. (hee hee) Hopefully I will find out tomarrow weather they are going to keep me or let me go. There have been a few people that I have enjoyed working with.

I have been without my kids all week and they come home sunday. You can wish for someone to take them for a while just so you can have a break and have no resposiblities for awhile, but after a couple of days I wonder what the hell to do with myself. Since I am working now I couldn't take advantage and go do something. Darn it anyways.

Well I am beat and have one more day of work for the week so this is short, I will have to think of some clever or hillarious story to tell you. I'm sure I could think of another one about my sister. I'm sure she would love that one.

TC

Gee it is only tuesday??? Damn

2004-10-19T20:17:00.000-07:00

Now why in the hell can't it just be friday now? I am ready. It is only tuesday and I feel like I have been beatin over and over again. That's it they are working me too hard at work. I will just have to tell them to stop it. Just kidding if they didn't keep me busy I could be bored at home not making any money. I am suppost to find out this week if they are going to keep me or let me go. I'm a little worried about it since the week after next they only have me schedualed for only one day. HMMMMM what to think about that one.

We haven't seen the to be step kids in over a month, and they may get to be here this weekend. Even though all of our kids fight like they are truely siblings I can not wait to see them. On the other hand there goes my idea of going out drinking this weekend. OH WAIT I have older kids now. They can watch themselves. (Reminding myself thank god bf and myself decided not to have one of our own, I would still be dealing with diapers if we would have, yes we had temp. insanity)

Well we will see what the rest of the week brings. Maybe tommarow I will make 4 posts in a row.

TC

How our pets can not be so smart

2004-10-18T21:38:00.000-07:00

We all would like to think we have the smartest pets. Well mine isn't all so smart all of the time. She is a cocker spaniel, cute as a button but not too smart alot of the time.

Well tonight she decided to pull her brightest move yet. We have been using our fire place to cut down on the gas bill to heat our not so isulated house. So I come home from work to a very warm house. I am sitting next to it watching t.v., I look over to see if it needed more wood in it, and what do I see.......

My little angel (her name is angel) doing a really good jigg across the top of the fire place. Hellooooo dog that damn thing is hotter than hell. What posessed her to do that I have no clue. I guess she thought she was still cold.

Another long day at work. We put in 12 hours today. No wonder I am so freakin tired!!!!! I am suppost to find out this week if they are going to keep me on for the holiday season. So hopefully I can stay until I find what I really want to do.

Hey I just relized I have now posted 2 days in a row. Yippie!!!! I said I would and I did even though I feel dinggier than Jessica Simpson. Maybe I better get my butt to bed and fix that.

TC

Streakinggggggggggggggg

2004-10-17T20:11:00.000-07:00

No I didn't make the streakinggg thing either!!! Not enough beverages to allow me to do that one yet. May work on that one this next weekend. :P:P

Alright I missed out on my goal

2004-10-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

Well I did not do so well with the goal of posting the following day. What can I say I am bad. O.K. Im not so bad I have been just plain ol wore out.

Friday night I decided I was way thirsty so went to the bar for a couple of cold ones. Talk about a bad idea! The drinks were good, but the bar was dead. How could a bar be dead on a friday night. So I only had a couple and headed home to were I knew it would be much funner and planned to try again Saturday night. Damn Saturday night was worse. Even less people were there. What is up with that. Maybe next weekend.

So this is the one week out of the year that my x-husband takes the kids for the full week so I can go on our elk hunting trip. Saturday night was my daughters first home comming dance. Her dad let her go to the salon down the road to get her hair done. OH MY FREAKIN GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My baby didn't look like my baby! She was beautiful. (not that I don't think everyday. But I wasn't ready for that one. None the less ready for any of them to grow up at all. I will post some pictures as soon as I get some of them.

Well I got to get ready for work again tomarrow. TC

Half way day

2004-10-13T20:07:00.000-07:00

Yahhhhh it is half way day or hump day which ever you prefer. Almost time to maybe go out and relax so I can regret it the next morning.

Well work is going ok. Monday feet were sore, tuesday couldn't hardly walk, today Hey Im getting some feeling back in them now. Woo hoo!!! Most of who I am working with are real hoots. I almost think we have too much fun. But ya have to have fun to make work interesting. Not much to post tonight so I will set the goal of posting more tomarrow. ;)

TC

Who is with me????

2004-10-11T20:37:00.000-07:00

How many women are with me??? Who would love to travel back in time with me and and beat the living tar outta Eve with me???????????? I'm a woman on a mission now!!!! ;)

Physical Labor??????

2004-10-11T19:52:00.000-07:00

Dang I forgot what Physical Labor was like.(Hee Hee) My last job of 4 years was Mental Labor. What a difference, i now remember. Today was my first day of my last choice of a job, but hey it is money in the pocket until I get the one I want. I am really interested in bookkeeping, which is what I was doing last but I guess Wal-Mart needs bookkeepers too. That's what I may do if I get on for good. Work my way up to the office. And yes I said Wal-Mart or aka Wally world. (Blushing as I admit to working there) Well I am off to take my sorry butt to bed for another day.
TC

How the weekend flew by

2004-10-10T20:56:00.000-07:00

Boy how the weekend flew by. I didn't get a whole lot accomplished. Mainly lazy!! Ya gotta like lazy :) Oh Jenny TC means Take Care. Soccer child won her game again this weekend. So far 5 wins and only 2 losses. yippie!!! Got through half of my orientation Friday finish tomrrow and then slave away time for me. I am happy about it on one hand but feel bad on the other, since my sister also applied for the darn thing and didn't get it. My luck now she is going to land an awsome job and I will be oh so jelous. But I get to be so lucky as to wake up at 5:30 every morning now instead of sleeping in til noon. I am really going to miss that. Well I'm off to see how worn out I can be tomarrow.

TC (Take Care)

She finally let go

2004-10-07T19:38:00.000-07:00

Grandma finally let go at 3:50 a.m. this morning. I know she is now not suffering no longer. It is hard but in a way not as hard as I was expecting just knowing she will not be having a long drawn out battle with the cancer.

Several months back I lost a good friend/co-worker that I know was close with my grandmother. They would flap they're jaws while grandma took her chances on one of her favorite games--KENO. Actually she made alot of friends sitting at her favorite table, just so she could see the keno screen just right. All of the old timers that made it a ritual to gather every morning, soon you would find grandma joining in on they're gatherings.

But I know Grandma and Linda are up they're givin em a rough time and Grandpa sitting back just shaking his head at them both. The though just brings me a giggle.

On another note I have orientation in the morning for a job. One that I'm not real pleased with taking, but a job is a job right now. I just feel bad about it though because my sister applied at the same place and interviews the prior week than I did, but she has not gotten a call from them. The whole thing almost makes me not want to take the job at all.

Well I'm off for now.......TC

Grandma is being Grandma

2004-10-06T21:57:00.000-07:00

Grandma is being her well know self! She has had all of her children and most of her grandchildren and great grandchildren visit her over the last several days. And even though there is nothing we can do for her now but make her comfortable and let her know it is o.k. to let go now, the stuborn woman just keeps hanging on. I just hope she is as comfortable as she looks, except for when she scares the heck outta me when she gasps for air. I catch myself holding my breath until she takes another one and I remind myself to breathe again. As much as I hate to loose her I hope she lets go soon so she suffers no more. After all she has Grandpa waiting for her.

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2004-10-05T23:48:00.000-07:00

Does anyone know the true meaning of a dork??????????

Phewww another day down

2004-10-05T22:54:00.000-07:00

Made it though another day. Grandma is still with us but fadeing fast. Got to see somemore family that I don't get to see often. Too bad it had to be grandma dieing to do it. I hope god takes her in his sleep. They are keeping her as commfy as they can until he comes for her. Just as I got used to how helpless and infant like she looks now she sounds so horrible. As much as I hate to loose her I just wish he would hurry the hell up so she doesn't suffer anymore!

As my middle child puts it she is ready to go be with grandpa now. That she has stayed here for 12 or so years without him now she wants to be with him because she misses him so.

Hello where the hell does a 12 year old little girl come up with that??? She never suprises me with the way she looks at things sometime but then again she does. My oldest finally broke down today and says that she is happy with her good bye and doesn't want to go back anymore. Not that there will be a chance for her to go back. And my son I just don't think he knows how to respond. He is only 9. But I just didn't want to hide reality from them. I just hope that I have handled it the right way. Well enough for tonight I am off to try to get some sleep before another long day that I know it will be tomarrow.

Have a good wed. and TC